I Found My Faith In You.

The news channels are constantly filled with tragedies and sadness these days, from murders and robberies to different disasters occurring all over the world; yet, in the midst of all the chaos and madness going on, I have found my piece of faith in you little one.

You see, right now you’re still growing and you’re still developing. You are completely unaware of what’s happening all around us. Your innocent eyes have yet to witness pain and your pure heart knows nothing but the love that your daddy and I express to you daily. To you, crime and evil don’t yet exist and I wish more than anything, I could keep it this way forever.

You know, I have a huge job lying ahead of me, as your mommy.. There are so many things I’ve jotted down in journals and lists I’ve made in random notebooks, in order to try to remember everything that I want to teach you. But as I sit here, thinking about all that is going on in the world, something became very clear to me..

All the lists, the notes, the ideas that I’ve come up with, in hopes to help you grow into an amazing man, are nothing compared to what I need to show you about cherishing each and every moment of your life. Sure, you’ll need to know your ABC’s and how to count to 100. Your daddy will teach everything important about how to throw the perfect spiral and hitting a line drive that not even Brandon Phillips can catch, but at the end of the day, on top teaching you all the necessary hacks to life, I hope I can show you how to love..

​You’re going to be told the same thing for the rest of your life, that “time goes faster than you think,” but trust me, it really does. So love hard and love passionately while you can, because things won’t always be the same. Your friends will probably change like the seasons, but you’ll meet the select few that will stick by your side through thick and thin. Your favorite sport will change as you realize which one you’re better at or maybe you won’t even like sports at all. Everything that seems to make sense one day, will make you feel scatter-brained the next, but that’s okay.

Hold on to each moment that you’re given, even the struggles, because although it may seem like your world is crashing down at the time, when you look back, you’ll see how every obstacle you faced had a part in shaping you into the perfect gentleman that I know you’re going to be. Spend your life doing whatever it is that makes you happy. Make memories with anyone. No, actually make memories with everyone, because there will come a time when memories are all that are left. I know I’ve told you a lot of things, most that you won’t understand for a little while longer, but I have one more request of you..

Always remember that you are my entire life and that is the one thing that will never change. When things get tough and when you want to give up, don’t. I can’t promise you that this life will always be easy but I can promise you that we will face it together, because you will always be my baby.

A Letter To My Unborn Child.

Dear Little One, 

    We have yet to look into each other’s eyes and I have yet to hold you in my arms, but it’s crazy because somehow, I feel as if I already know exactly who you are. It’s only been a handful of weeks since you became a reality, but in that short amount of time, you have changed my entire world. We haven’t officially been introduced yet, but over the next several months, we will continue ‘growing’ together, as will the bond that we have already formed, and before long, you’ll know exactly who I am, you’re mommy.

    Saying those words makes my heart fill with so much joy and excitement. I cannot wait to feel your kicks and movements as you are developing in my tummy. I cannot wait to start shopping and spoiling you to ensure that we are fully prepared (but no worries, because that won’t stop once you’re actually here). I know the days will get longer and the nights of sleeping that I enjoy so much will soon become a thing of the past, as you take a toll on my body, but I am beyond ready for this journey with you. I promise, I won’t complain too much when the backaches kick in or when the restroom becomes my new favorite place because you like to use my bladder as a pillow. As odd as it sounds, I’m ecstatic for those moments; the challenges, the hardships, the pain, all of it.. because the end result is you and I know you will be worth it.     

    It won’t be long before I get to see your sweet face and smother you with kisses, but until then, I will continue talking to you from out here and doing my very best to keep you safe in there. I try to imagine who you will look like. My nose and daddy’s eyes or maybe daddy’s lips and my chubby cheeks? But regardless, I know that you are going to be the most beautiful baby and your daddy and I are so very blessed.

    I look forward to all of the ‘firsts’ that I will share with you and the many more that will follow after. I am counting down the days until I get to hold you for the very first time. But for now, I find myself reading up on your progress daily to see what new things you can do and how your little body is forming into my very own dream come true. Every day for the rest of my life, I will have you to look forward to.

     I pray for you each and every day, just as I prayed for you long before I knew you existed. I pray that you continue to grow and be healthy and strong so that when you’re ready to finally make your grand entrance, it’s absolutely perfect- just like I know that it will be.

    It’s amazing how many people already love you and ask about you often. Can you imagine how they will be once you arrive? You have so much love surrounding you already, but you just have to promise that mommy and daddy will always be your favorites!

    Little one, you’ve already completely stolen my heart and I will cherish every second that I spend carrying you, not only in my belly, but also in my arms. I am beyond thankful that I have been blessed with you. Life is full of adventures, but this is by far my favorite one.

Love always,

Your mommy.